Greetings Fellow BookNerds,
It makes little difference where our aspirations lie, whether we yearn to become a doctor, a politician, a writer, a teacher, or a banker. Regardless of where our desired destination is, we all have to start at the same place: the bottom. It doesn’t feel like a very good place to be sometimes, especially when we’re surrounded by those who have climbed to the top of their life’s mountain and are able to enjoy the magnificent view from the top.
Yes, I’m sure we all wish that we could just skip the hardships and stress that comes from being at the bottom, but you know what? Regardless of whether you’re just starting out or you’re part of the big leagues, there are always going to be moments where you doubt yourself, or you question whether this was really what you wanted to do because it’s a lot harder than you had imagined it would be.
I’m not saying all of this to rain on your parade or anything. After all, I am also at the bottom, and have chosen to follow the path to becoming a writer which many have taken, but only some of whom have made it all the way to the end, to the top of their own mountains. It’s a daunting journey, especially for someone like me who suffers from anxiety and occasional depression episodes, and sometimes I ask myself that very same question: is this what I really want to do? And do you know what I tell myself every time? Hell yes!
Writing has been my passion for as long as I can remember. Even though I didn’t really get into reading until I was in grade 4, I probably wouldn’t have had the time anyway because up until then, I was too busy trying to create my own stories. For me, it’s not just a dream, but something I feel that I need to do.
I suffered from crippling shyness when I was young, and as a result I found it painstakingly difficult to express myself vocally. As you can imagine, it created challenges for me whenever I wanted to make friends, but that wasn’t even the worst part. I’ve always felt that I had a lot of really good ideas, but because I was too shy to share them, most of those ideas never got to see the light of day, something I look back on every day with immense regret.
I can’t change how I was in the past, but even if I could, I don’t think I would want to, because then I might not have the same drive that I do today to pursue a career in writing, and that just seems to wrong. Our past is what makes us who we are, and as difficult and torturous as some of those moments may have been, we still managed to ‘keep calm and carry on’, as the saying goes.
And you know, being at the bottom isn’t all bad. That’s when you’re able to see all of the different possibilities laid out in front of you, and we are still able to see each one of them as attainable. There’s also that saying where once you’re at the top, then there’s nowhere to go but down. A frightening prospect indeed, but it’s something that we all must face after we’ve had our brief moment to admire the view before reality kicks in.
When you’re still at the bottom, the only way to go is up, and I think that’s what gives many of us hope, even on our darkest days. So really, we should be treasuring those moments in our early days, because as tough as things might get, our origins give us roots to keep us grounded, creating a place that we can always go back to if ever we find ourselves in need of comfort.
What is your dream? I would love to hear all about what inspired it, and what you’ve gone through thus far to achieve it, because we all have our own story, and there is always a pair of ears somewhere waiting anxiously to hear it.
Leave your thoughts in the comments below, and until next time, keep on reading!